Wednesday, October 28, 2009

The Beast within myself

The beast I have put up with for 18 years now is my temper. This has hurt people I care about like family, friends, and me. My beast is something you don't want to deal with at anytime because when my beast is out it takes a lot to get it back in. People have tried to tame my beast but they aren't successful. My beast comes out if somebody forces it out by hurting my feelings, saying something to offend my family and myself, or hurting another person.
My beast has hurt many many people like my family. This has affected them because when they ask me to do something and I'm in a bad mood, my beast is out and I don't feel like doing what they ask me to do because of it. My parents are responsible because they ask me to do chores my brother never does and somehow I end up doing it for him. My siblings are constantly asking me to take them to the pool or on a walk to the creek and it gets on my nerves. If they get on my nerves then my beast is out. I hate when my beast is out at home because it gets my in SO much trouble. I don't like to be in trouble because it is never fun if it happens more than once then I'm grounded. Everybody hates to be grounded.

Another group of people that my beast has hurt is my group of friends. My friends are important to me because they help me through just about everything that is on my mind. My beast affects them because if I get in trouble at home because of my beast then I take away time to hangout with them and they don't want to hangout with my anymore because I am in trouble. My friends care so much about me that they mostly try to tame my beast because they want to hangout with me. When they don't want to hangout with me then that means I'm very sad and people don't like to see me sad. This is something I struggle with everyday in my life.

The last group of people my beast affects is myself. Yes my beast does indeed affect me in many ways. My beast affects me by affecting my views on certain people I hold dearly to my heart. I have so many problems with taming my beast. It cannot be tamed in any shape, size, or form possible. My beast affects my health, head, and other things that I can't name.

As you can see my beast is indeed my temper and it can't be tamed in any way possible. My beast affects my family, friends, and myself even and i don't like the negative impact it has on my life at all. My beast has come out a lot in the last couple of weeks because of the reasons that I explained in the previous paragraphs. I hat e my beast and I want it to go away. I regret everything that my beast has caused me to do over the years. Sometimes my beast led me to tears because of what I said to a person I cared a lot about. My beast is evil and it makes me do evil things.